Hi! Remember me?
That girl who used to be obsessed with writing essays on her little corner of the internet? I still am, but let's be honest - at best my uploading schedule has been sporadic, at worst it's been absolutely abysmal. It's not that I haven't been writing - I have tonnes of posts sitting in my drafts just waiting for their time to shine, but the actual uploading has been a little allusive.
Let me be frank - 2020 was meant to be the best year ever for me and The Owlet, and instead calling it a trainwreck seems a little too nice. 2020 was hard for everyone - I'm not even going to pretend that it wasn't and I know I was not even close to one of the worst affected people in the world. "You had a few holidays cancelled, boohoo, poor you" - I mean they were mainly work trips but the point still stands.
I'm one of those people that gets inspiration from being busy and doing things. It's not even a case of having new things to write about because even after almost 5 years I still have a notebook overflowing with ideas of things to write. I thrive off of being busy and having things to look forward to - I think motivation is probably a better word. Working towards things makes me incredibly motivated - I'm very goal-oriented and without these big trips to plan for and work towards I ended up in a bit of a holding pattern. I kept sitting down at my desk and writing, then deciding the articles weren't good enough so not uploading them. Similarly with my Instagram I would have this photo that I'm really proud of and desperate to share, but I've become known for my chatty captions about what's going on in my life and how do you write a chatty caption about life when the most exciting thing you've done all week is the weekly food shop?
There's been a few blog-related triumphs this year - namely The Owlet is now my full time job and I'm somehow renting a home with my boyfriend off the back of this thing I started as an escape from a miserable relationship and terrible choice of university. I know I've shared my life with you, but shouting about blog successes doesn't always sit right with me. I'm eternally grateful for your support and the fact that you enjoying my content and supporting my passion project has allowed me to live this amazing life, but saying "hey, this is my job now" feels weird. It feels a bit like I'm using you for money, and while I am making money from having an audience and sharing my life it's never been about making money for me and I don't really like to mention it in case you feel the same as me. I started The Owlet because it was a fun thing to do, and I guess that turning it into work stole a little of the fun. I didn't want to upload content that I wasn't happy with for the sake of uploading, so I just didn't.
2020 has been the year of learning - learning to let plans change, learning to take care of yourself and reminding yourself to show kindness to others and while I haven't been particularly active online I've been trying my best to do all of these things.
I haven't done one of these posts for a while. These days I tend to try to schedule my content in advance, so just sitting down and rambling (typing directly into Blogger and hoping it doesn't crash on me - that's a blast from the past!) feels a little alien. I don't know why, but I woke up this morning ready to sit down and write, so I'm here. I can't promise that I'm going to go back to uploading every week and shouting about new blog posts from the rooftops on every social media platform, but I'm here and I'll be here at every possible opportunity.
Thank you again for being the most kind, supportive and encouraging audience. I know from a numbers point of view I couldn't do this without you, but that's not what I care about. I genuinely wouldn't still be doing this if it wasn't for the smiles, laughter, incredible support and in-depth conversations that I've been so lucky to experience as a blogger. Seriously, thank you.
Love and Feathers,
The Owlet 💜
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